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hey, i dont even know where to staart. abused myself so much idk who i am anymore. drank and smoked since forever, used pot and stuff sometimes too-not proud of it though. had depression since i was a teen, been suicidal for ages. in 2018 i had a full-on freak out which landed me in a psych hospital for like 4-5 months. that's probably the safest i've ever felt. after that i tried to stay sober but stll felt really off. did therapy for 3 years but wasn't honest, didn't help much cos of that. a year ago my best friend died and it was so hard. i thought i hanndled it well but deep down something is wrong. tried meds, clean livinng, everything. getting tired of fighting thsi battle. now feeling like my family would be better off without me. hate myself and teh world. religious too which makes it complicated-why punish someone for hurtign? life's beautiful but also evil as hell. closing myself off fast, burning bridges left and right. dont wanna feel this way but can't admit i'm not as strong as people think. still breathing for others but thats messed up. want to be here but don't know how much longer.buckets overflowing rn
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u should try anti-dep stuff - it helps w symptoms and makes u feel better overall.therapists like cbt help u figuer out ur neg thoughts and find healthier ways 2 cope. meds like ssris balance brain chem and lift mood. also, living healthy- exercise, good food, sleep well. talk 2 a doc to fig out what works for u imho
Hey there, I know this might seem a bit out of left field, but I wanted to share that I'm really into Islam and pretty solid in my faith too. I've had my fair share of moments where I wasn't the best Muslim (hey, we're all human right?), and life has its ups and downs for everyone.But religion has ben like a lifeline for me in so many ways.
I know you mentioned being Christian, but there's actually quite a bit of overlap between our faiths. When I hit those dark patches, I turned to a book called "Don't Be Sad." It's originally in Arabic, but there's an English version too. Even though I'm not much of a reader myself, this book really spoke to me and has some great nuggets of wisdom. You can flip through the chapters however you like-they don't need to be read in order.
Another thing that helps is listening to the Quran right before bed-seriously, it's super calming. And if you're curious about the English translation, give it a lok-it might surprise you with how interesting it is.
Hope things start looking up for you!