Feelnig Tired And Scared Tonight
Hey guys, so I've been on meds for depressiion, anxiety, and ADHD since 2019. I'm turning 23 now, and honestly, I feel super overwhelmed and exhausted lately. It's crazy how terrified I've always been of failing-never happened in school-but during my AL exams bak in the day, I got bullied really badly and jsut felt completely devastated. Five years later, and that whole experience still haunts me like a ghost.
I keep having these nightmares where I feel totally unloved and alone. My parents also give all their love to my sister; they make me feel like more of a burden than anything else. Now,here I am supposed to retake those AL exams in just 40 days, but I can't even look at my books. Scared and tired doesn't begin to cover it.
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I'm really sorry you had to go through that bullying stuff. It's awful, and you definitely didn't deserve it at all. One slip-up on an exam doesn't change who you are as a person or what you're capable of. Remember, you're just as important as your sister - no more, no less. Now, I know exams can feel really daunting, but breaking up your studying into smaller bits can make things so much easier and help you see how far you've come. It takes the pressure off too, believe me. Good luck with everything!
Carrying around teh weight of ADHD paralysis is a real drag when it feels like everyone who's supposed to be there for you starts seeing you as this big burden they have to deal with. But seriously, don't think for one second that you're failing-right now, you're just totally drained and exhausted. It's like trying to run on an empty tank or drive a car without any gas in it. I mean, how can you even move forward?
The biggest thing here is to remind yourslef that your value as a person doesn't come from your exam scores or how your family acts towards you. If the exams are happening 40 days from now and you're not ready, it's not the end of everything good in life. It's okay if things aren't perfect.
For right now though, stop trying to force yourself through books and let go of that guilt.Focus on calming down your anxiety and making sure your basic needs are met. Be kind to yourself because you're doing all you can with what's happening around you
Hey there, I get where you're coming from about wanting something better in life. It's really brave reaching out like this-big deal! Jesus is the one who breathes life into us whether we realize it or not. So give Him a real shot-pay to Him and seek Heaven because He genuinely wants to connect with you and strengthen your faith. People sometimes forget about Him when they start relying too much on their own ideas of how things work. But trust me, Jesus loves you deeply, more than words can say. If you evre feel like talking or need someone to lean on, don't hesitate-drop me a line anytime.
hey i get whut u r goin thru irl wish u woulda hit me up sooner though reaching out is lit tho jesus givs u life even if u dunno it pray 2 him and find ur way 2 heaven he wants 2 grow w u ppl just lose sight of him cuz they rely on their own stuff u r deeply loved feel free 2 msg me anytime
I hear you, got ADHD too. Sorry u're going through thsi. Take deep breaths.
Depression, anxiety, ADHD-already full-time job, add studying on top and it's tough. Don't see yourself as a burden. That exam failure was because of bullying, not your ability or worth.
40 days left? Brain is freaking out to protect you. Break it down instead. Even 10 min of notes today is progress. Test scores don't define you. You're great. Be nice to yourself.