Maybe talking about teen addictions?

I started smoking when I was 13 and it feels like there's no turning back now. It began as a fun thing but turned into an alcohol addiction. Even though I'm still young, I feel worse every day and can't stop drinking. When I have a drink, I just feel free of all worries and out of reality, so quitting seems impossible to me. My mom had a traumatic childhood because her dad was an alcoholic, and she sees that in me now. She says she's very disappointed and doesn't understand why I keep making bad choices. I'm at a loss right now; stopping just makes my mental health worse, but I don't want my family to hate me.