Tips and tricks threadhonestly, just looking for some advice here, i mean tips

Hey there! So, I'm 38 with four kids, you know? Life's been a wild ride, and I kinda got stuck in bad habits for quite a while. For about six years, I was hitting the bottle pretty hard,dealing with some deep depression stuff. But after that long dark tunnel, I finally managed to get help and turned things around two whole years ago now. I never really considered myself an alcoholic-mostly because I didn't think I had to have booze to cope anymore-but it's still something I enjoy from time to time.

Anyway, last weekend I was out in the yard doing some work when I thought a drink on such a hot day sunded like heaven. So I had six-or maybe more-and endde up totally tipsy by evening. My husband came home and he hasn't been happy with me since then, i mean, he's been super mad about it for days. It's weird, because sometimes I feel like I'm hiding who I really am just to make him pleased or fit into this mold of the perfect wife that doesn't exist. And when I tried to be myself and enjoy a drink once in a while? Yeah, I kinda lost control.

I guess my question is: is it okay for me to still have that occasional drink even though my last time was about a month ago? Or am I just hurting everyone around me? My husband always has something sharp to say, you know, making me feel like everything's somehow all my fault. And because of him, I don't even have friends anymore since he judges anyone who isn't his iddea of perfect. So now I'm at a loss here-what do I actually do?