Anxiety attack yest-scared my lil bro

So last night, I had this huge panic attack when my dad told me he wasn't feeling well at work. Like, full-on anxiety hitting me super hard. And honestly, the fear just took over and I ended up calling him but his phone was off. My mind went to all these worst-case scenarios-and I know it's ridiculous-but you can only imagine how freaked out I got. To try and calm myself down, I actually told my little bro to pray for our dad because I thought something really bad might've happened. Of course, that just scared him even more.

Now, thining about it this morning, I feel terrible about making my brother worry like that. My mom's been trying to help me chill out and she keeps telling me everything is going to be okay-which helps a little-but man, I still can't shake off the guilt of scaring him.

And then there was another time when we were heading to my bro's graduation. The whole ride over, I started worrying that I forgot something at home-like leaving the stove on-and it just spiraled from there. Dad had actually turned it off but in the moment, all I could think about was coming back to a disaster because of this one little thing.

Every time this happens, I feel like such a burden and hnoestly, it's hard not to hate myself for being so paranoid. But you know how it is-when anxiety hits, it feels so real that you can't help but freak out. And then事后你可能需要补充一些内容来匹配原始文本的长度，比如再次描述一下你的感受或者具体一点的情况。

I'm still waiting for my dad to get back and every time the phone rings I jump like crazy hoping it's him calling. But until he does, I just have to try and stay calm and hope everything really is okay-because honestly, all these worries feel so real when they happen. It's tough dealing with this anxiety stuff and not wanting to be that person who freaks out everyone around them. If only thre was an off switch for panic attacks!