Feeling unhuman and worried others notice

Sometimes I feel like I'm different from everyone else, as if my existence is being questioned. It seems that people are always trying to challenge or defeat me just for existing. At times, I sense a cold presence around me, an energy that doesn't seem to belong to me. When I was very young, I experienced what felt like empathic paranormal activity, and it's as if this experience has never left my life.

After the incident, my world changed dramatically. Now, I ofetn feel dead inside; I rarely cry but get extremely angry at the world and others. This anger is directed outward, yet it feels like an external force is fueling it. People seem to be wary of me as if they sense this energy.

The emotions associated with this feeling are overwhelming and lead to severe depression. It's exhausting trying to maintain my integrity while dealing with these isolating thoughts and paranoia during social interactions. No matter how hard I try, I can't escape the grip of this negative force.

I have been on medication throughout my life and have undergone exorcisms and therapy, but even when things get slightly better for a short time, they always revert back to their previous state.

In addition to these feelings, I experience vivid nightmares. In them, the entire world turns against me during an apocalyptic event. Other dreams involve people in cloaks telling me that my soul is no longer mine adn hasn't been for a long time. Most hauntingly, there are recurring dreams of walking through a misty swamp forest where a tall creature with antlers follows me. It mimics the voices of my loved ones, including my deceased mother, saying hurtful things about my worthlessness and how they regret giving birth to me.

These experiences make me question everything about myself and my place in this world.