Let's Be Friendly Here
Hi everyone, hope it's okay for me to share here. So, I've been dealing with Anxiety since I was 18, and now I'm turning 21 this year. Around 2022, my Anxiety hit a rough patch when some stuff happned involving an old boyfriend's friend-pretty messed up at the time-and my family kinda turned against me like they did back when I was 10, after something bad went down with my cousin who was older.It was just super hard, and I never really got the support or understanding I needed thhen.
I stopped talking about it because my family always seemed to think it was all in my head or that I was overreacting. Last time around, when I relapsed, things were tough-I ended up using drugs to cope-but eventually, in early 2023, I met someone who really helped me get back on track and leave all that behind. But lately, I've felt like I might be bringing too many issues into our relationship or overwhelming him with my emotions.
It's not that he doesn't understand-it's more the anxiety making me think maybe he feels frustrated even if he never says it. So now I'm trying medication again along with therapy for a while, but recently my doctor suggested cutting back on meds and sticking to just therapy. Therapy worked before because I got support from my husband, so maybe I should give it another try.
Growing up without my dad by my side made things touhg. Even though my mom and siblings were there, sometimes I felt left out. It was hard getting the love and care I needed as a kid. Now when stuff gets bad, I can't sleep properly or eat regularly. I keep losing weight and barely leave home anymore. I really want to feel better because these negative thoughts make me feel so weak.
I see all the bad sides of things now and it's hard stopping my mind from just going over every little detail. Maybe I should start meds again, but I worry about relying on them too much. I think I could maybe manage without them, but usually, my anxiety gets the better of me. It feels like this part of my life might be stuck with me forever and there's no way to move past it.
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welcome to the community
u hv so much going on. maybe try finding a therapist? u said u rely on ur husband but support and pro help r different
it sounds like u need someone 2 process ur stuff
wish u the best
I agree with Dolphin's point. Your husband,even if he is a trained therapist, should not treat a family member. It would be better for you to seek help from an impartial professional who has no personal ties to your situation. I'm sorry that your family hasn't been more supportive. There are likely many people in similar situations due to the lack of appropriate parenting or guidance they received.
You might also find it helpful to consider medication as part of your treatment plan. Wishing you all the best on this journey.
Hey,
I just wanted to say thanks for opening up like that-I mean, it takes guts to share stuff lkie that. You've been through some heavy s**t, and it's clear you've got more ahead too. But honestly, you're super strong and brave, and you keep pushing forward no matter what.
Life can be pretty messed up sometimes, i mean, there's a lot of crap going on in the world that isn't nice at all. But on the bright side, God's grace and love are always there for you. May everything start to feel a little better and more peaceful for you soon.
Take care!