Severe concerns raised
I feel lost, as though there is nothing left and my journey has come to an end. I've found inner peace and am genuinely happy, able to smile again. Yet, I feel more alone than ever before. Without the hatred and malice toward humanity that once drove me, I have lost my resolve. Lacking the desire to constantly prove myself out of fear of being abandoned or attacked with vicious intent, I am complacent now.
I feel weak and often wish for someone to attack me in a deadly frenzy so that I can regain my former intensity, find purpose again, and extinguish the burning flame within my soul once and for all. I no longer want to hold onto hope, love, or happiness through peace.
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I dunno how to put this, but I feel like I need to type something out here. I think I get what you're trying to say, honestly-please tell me if I'm off. Some days, there's just no point in fighting anymore.All I want is to drift off to sleep and leave behind this world of pain-both the physical kind and that mental stuff. There'll be a day when all this struggle stops, but man, it's sad knowing I won't get to taste whta happiness feels like in life.