Is My Mind Playing Tricks On Me?

Hey everyone, so recently, you know, I've been going through this whole thing where I lost almost 60 pounds. First off, I did it for my health-no joke, my asthma has improved a ton-but also, honestly, because one day my husband mentioned that I had put on some weight, and let's be real, that stuff sticks in your head.

So now the weird part is, after all this weight loss, he thinks I'm too skinny. And you know what? This weekend was like the moment of truth-I saw the disgust in his eyes, and it really hit me hard. It feels like everything's falling apart inside my brain. Am I seeing this right, or am I just making myself feel even worse?

Nowadays, every time I look in the mirror, all I see is that same disgusted look back at me. Part of me wants to gain weight again because it's gnawing at me, but I know it wouldn't be good for my health and asthma. Why do I keep thinking like this? How am I supposed to accept and be happy with who I am now?

Anyway, it's just one of those things where you hope someone else has some ideas or advice because honestly, I'm feeling pretty lost here.