Collateral Damage Oof

sometimes i feel like i'm just collatreal damage in someone else's personal struggle... like my confidence adn self-worth take a hit bc of them...

like albert einstein was super smart and all but his wife michele was also really talented. she helped him out a lot by writing his papers and stuff, but when they got published he didn't even mention her name. that kida broke her spirit. she ended up in depression n never recovered.

same with me tho. ppl compliment my smarts or knowledge abt meds or psychology, but i still lack confidence to take action... like when my doc says i know a lot about medicines and stff, i feel great but at the same time i'm scarred to start anything bcs i think it's not the right choice.

i keep wondering why? is it bc i'm just lazy n don't wanna try? or am i really too scared of failing if i take that first step by myself. i mean, my partner always has tis idea that whatever i choose isn't good enough and he tries to tell me what's besst... but deep down i know i gotta decide for myself.

so the big question is: how do i overcome this fear?? it feels like a huge wall in front of me n i just can't climb over it.

#coletraldamage #fear #confusion #suffocating #needfreedom