Feeling super down - for real
Hey there,
So, I started taking antidepressants at 16 and stopped when I was 19. Then in 2023, a bunch of rough stuff hit-losing family members, dealing with some terrible abuse-and it's been a real challenge to cope.
I tried EDMR for PTSD and went through all teh counseling too, but honestly? It feels like no matter what I do, nothing works. I've changed my hair style and makeup look, started hitting the gym every day, gone out more, stayed in less, drank till I felt nub, quit drinking cold turkey, forced myself to meet new people then shut myself off from everyone, traveled all over the world, came back home, dated different folks, stopped dating entirely... you name it, I've done it. But still, nothing seems to stick.
I hate every part of me right now and wish I colud just start over. I want to bleach my whole body (I know, drastic), but at the same time, I don't wanna be touched or recognized by anyone because I'm so lonely. And I'm not even sure what to do next. Maybe it's time to see a doctor again.
I can't escape this feeling and sleep is when all these memories and people come back to haunt me. Any thoughts out three?
3 Replies
counseling rly helps & talk to ur doc abt meds tbh
dont give up go talk to the doc there r options dont rule out therapy bc there r so many diff types tht might work for u sometimes its just the right person delivering it if antidepressants helped b4 they might help now if u r feeling bad but hey not evryone rsponds to them some ppl find other stuff helps like we tried a flow neuroscience headset and it kinda worked for us no meds tho i know trying so much feels disheartening when it feels like its not working but somtimes the results take longer than u think or maybe u just need a lil more help along with those things exercising even a bit and eating well cant hurt might make u feel better in the long run hope u find what works for u
You sound overwhelmed. Counselling and EMDR probably haven't helped much.
Pick one issue to focus on first, like bereavement or abuse. Stopping the back-and-forth with drinking and dating helps too. Traveling or alcohol won't fix anything.
Talk to your doctor about meds and therapy. Write a journal of thoughts and feelings-it's good to release emotions. Try listing 5 positives every day, no matter how small they are.
Don't give up even if things seem bad. Keep going when it's tough.