Strugglig mentally-a lot to say

Hey everyone, kinda glad I can spill my guts here since I don't have a lot of support elsewhere and I feel bad burdening my daughter with all this junk.

So today's a big day because exactly one year ago, I lost my car due to my mental health issues, which eventually got me fired from the job I'd had for over two years. Just fund out recently that my sister has her own car and never once offered it to me when I needed it. Sure, she doesn't have a responsibility to share, but still-damn. And right now, seeing how much support and friends she's got while I feel so isolated? It's just salt in the wounds.

It feels like everyone else is moving forward while my life's been a mess of job losses and instability. I'm trying hard to get stable though-I've hit roadblocks with disability benefits too-but my therapist says keep pushing for work. Now,on top of everything else, I'm totlaly broke because I missed deadlines for assistance cash during a deep depression spell. Just signed up for a support group again next Monday (haven't attended in months) and trying to stay on top of DBT homework, an online class Thursday, Bible study, schoolwork, and therapy. Gotta push through all this crap.

But sometimes? I just want to hide and not deal with anyone or anything. It's tough to keep up when everyone else seems to be cruising along.