Why can't I just be happy for real?
Hey everyone, just popped in for the first time. So, since 2019, life's been a bit of a downer thanks to PTSD, menoapuse, and an epty nest-woah, talk about a triple whammy. And honestly, tonight my kid-who's now 21-asked why I look so grumpy all the time. You know that feeling when your child turns around and calls you out on it? It's tough to explain, but yeah, if you have kids, maybe you've felt that before
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I'm just a cat person myself, you know? So I get how it feels to be so mad at everything sometimes, or even just to have people grilling you like you did something wrong. Some folks think I might be on the spectrum, but nope, that's not me. And then there are others who've called me a psychopath, as if knowing my actual disorder isn't good enough for them. It's kinda weird how the world feels like it's moving without me, i mean, or maybe it's more accurate to say I'm just not in step with everyone else?
Yes, WiredX 🔌! We differently wired folks have often felt left behind by the world. I mean, we're just not into all those usual things, right? My dad used to give me a hard time back in his day about being out of touch with reality, but honestly, I've always been drawn to stuff that's metaphysical and esoteric-stuff like consciousness studies, which fascinated me even when I was young. In my twenties, I joined the Church of Old Worlds, which eventually led me to shamanism, which is really the root of all religions if you ask me.
My art has always focused on alternative healing modalities too-things that go way beyond what mainstream medicine offers. I did work in the medical system for a while, but I could never fully buy into their one-size-fits-all approach. Plus, my involvement in environmental stuff took me to all sorts of antinuclear activism and gardening,promoting clean living.
I've had the privilege of living in many communities that take a spiritual approach to life, health, adn happiness . It's made me wonder lately how losing my mobility due to an accident fits into all this. You know, I think it's given me time to reflect on everything that came before and how there might be something big waiting out there in the future-something meaningful that could come together as time goes on
Got it! I totally get that if my kids were still around and hubby was here, I probably wouldn't need as much medicatino. My whole life revolved around them, so when everyone went their separate ways, my mental health really tanked. Plus, there's the menopause thing going on too-and CPTSD doesn't help either. Feel free to reach out anytime!