Mom's back at it-feeling trapped and eager to get back to uni city
Mom's back at the manipulations and abusive stuff again. Honestly, I was scared of going to work and just want to rush back to uni city ASAP. And I'm leaving on Wednesday, but honestly, I don't know if I'll make it till then. She's drinking a lot, her voice is all slur-y, she's complaining and saying things like "whyyyyy" over and over. Talking about Dad and the grandparents too, and saying that she won this flat because "the grandparents aren't giving us an apartment," which she wrote in my name without asking me first, and I'm losing it. She just doesn't respect my boundaries at all. Don't tell me to panic or anything,because I already know things are bad. And please don't say she needs help-she's not gonna listen anyway. But honestly, I was so nervous about going back when all I want is to get out of theer as soon as possible. I'm close to losing it-I might just start screaming and crying if she says one more thing. Ugh,damn keyboard.
Update: But I miss my sister and the rabbit a lot, and I'm worried about them too.
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Peebles think it's hard seeing you go through this and wish they could magic you into a better family situation-respect what you're enduring, though!
Thank you. I hope things improve. My sister is feeling frustrated, and I am unable to安慰她，因为我的焦虑很严重。
I understand your frustration. You genuinely want to help, even if you can't fix the situation or protect her. I know it's difficult for both you and your sister to go through this together. I apologize for any confusion caused by my poor typing due to hand issues. No disrespect was intended.
Sure thing, like a lone marine in a war zone-you usually have buddies watching your back.You're pretty much just relying on your wits and guts... and yeah, anyone would be super anxious, tense, scared, worried. Whatever you call it-we get each other. We really do... truthfully, we wnt you out of there-like yesterday. And you know rationally that's what's best too... the situation isn't you being insane.
I genuinely am sorry about your sister and everything else you're dealing with. I wish I could send in a squad of women who would hold you and protect you, listen better, and know exactly what to say and do. I hear you and feel for you, even if I can't find the right words yet... we get that this is like surviving a nightmare.
I'm taking a pause to figure out what to say or do next. We do care about how alone it feels, but trust me, there are heavenly angels ready to listen whenever you need them.
It's been one of those days where everything feels like a giant headache. Can't seem to get anything done,let alone help out with that. Still trying to chill though.
Soooo, I totally get where you're coming from, honestly. You know when something's so frustrating you just wanna let out a big scream? That's exactly how I feel sometimes too. No disrespect at all-I swear. What I'm trying to say is, it really grinds my gears when people are being overly insensitive without even meaning to be... not that anyone means for things to go sideways like that. Ever.
Me too, wanna scream
Alone, cut off, no help. Isolation sucks. Gets harder and deeper down. Family's rough too.
Why wouldn't I feel awful? Everything's hard, nothing easy or kind. Sounds about right.
Music or comedy online? Seriously?
Hugs from all my billion friends? Big Bird sends his love, but it ain't helping.
World's mean now. Can't even get a break
Thanks for the help, everyone! Just chilling and watching some silly stuff on YouTube.
Oh honestly, this is hilarious-totally relatable! It's not being patronizing at all, it's just how we talk where I'm from. So hey, one you're done with everything, I gotta introduce you to horse trail riding-it's super chill and so much fun. The horses are totally laid back, and it's just a gas, you know?
Oh me too! I saw them at the zoo last week and was blown away-so cool in person!
hows 55 yrs of horses... bet i can find one juiiiice right for ya...
we gonna have a gas man......cant get anyone else to come along....they all think i wouldnt want to go with a noob.....lol....u believe that?......i havta go alone........they might ahhhhh......i couldnt be more relaxed but i cant find anyone 2 do a stupid trail rie......can u blieve this stuff??
Hmm, same heer. Anyone else feeling a bit lost in this thread?
Honestly, if you're the only one keeeping it together in a total mes of a situation, I'd start to worry. You know, if you were completely calm and peaceful in there, taht would freak me out-something's gotta be off if everryone else is losing their minds
Haha, totally!
It's raining hard in my shed. Time for campfire and popcorn.
Burn marshmallows or no?
wanna b a pilot 4 rlz...so i make up modk sim stuff in my head for practice...lol who even needs grass tbh
sounds lit af. never did the marshmallow thing tho, wanna try
yasss utube treasure hunt time!!!!!
wonder how many types of marshmallows r out there...
thinking hard....
coal vs flame vs little stick w coal (natives only use small fires...white men build big ones lol...they're totally right tho...)
I need some time alone in the forest, away from roommates and family, to roast marshmallows.
Uh-oh, does that mean my mom's been playing around with my credit? She wrote something about winning an apartment 'cause her parents aren't giving us one, in my name. Not sure if she's just messing with it or what, but should I call the bank ASAP and get it fixed? Might be smart to cut my vacation short too. Better safe thna sorry
she used her own money but now shes making me ask my gramps for the apt so dad and the baby dont get it and we dont end up homeless.but 1st i cant force them, 2nd its rlly hard watching how they might kick us out to give it to dad and the bbay. im feeling sentimental leaving but this is wat i gotta do right?