Family and health challenges
Hey there, just wanted to vent a little because honestly, I'm in one of those weird spots where everything fees off and lonely. You know how it is when you live with your mom but she's not super supportive about certain stuff? Like my brother got real nasty wiht me recently-he assaulted me-and it's complicated trying to figure out what to do when the peopel around you aren't really on your side.
Then there's my dad, who has always been tough on me in different ways. He stopped helping me financially becuase I chose to stay here instead of moving with him-it was kind of a retaliation thing. It's hard though since I'm dealing with this illness that needs some serious money for meds and treatment. Now I don't know how the heck I'll manage all that,which is stressful in itself.
The kicker is, right now my health isn't great so leaving or working isn't an option.But being here, where it all happened, just makes everything feel ten times worse emotionally speaking. It's kind of a cycle you get stuck in and it's draining. Anyways, I'm reaching out to see if there's someone out there who might understand what I'm going through and can maybe talk me through it or shre some advice.
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Talked to the doc yet? Might help.
I'm sorry you're going through this honestly it sounds rough. Sending love and support your way! All I can really say is take it one day at a time and be extra nice to yourself. Maybe journaling your feelings could help or just focus on eating well and getting enough sleep. When you're feeling stronger, would it make sense to look for a safe space outside of your home? Like a quiet park, the library, even maybe crashing at a friend's place or another family member's if that's an option. If not, putting on some music through earbuds could help block out noise and doing something calming like drawing might keep your mind off things.
Once you're in a betetr mental adn physical space, I think it would be smart to map out a plan on Google Docs or somewhere else about how you can eventually get out of this situation. Keep going to work, because honestly that's a solid step forward. Save up some cash so you can afford treatment later on and maybe een an apartment someday when you have more freedom. It sucks enduring everything right now, but your future self will totally thank you for sticking it out at work and pushing through all the crap. Best of luck with everything!