Abandoned feeling

Getting older doesn't change mcuh. School days were great but also terrifying. Dad was there every day, helped with homework-blissful times. Made one close friend, thought we'd always be together.

then dad lost his job-life changed. Moved to public school, fights daily, felt abandoned. Friends went private, I stayed. Hard to make friends, just two by end of term-one from old school, another new guy.

Moved again, easier this time. New friends, happier in junior year. Dad got a new job but had to travel-rare visits. Felt like he left us again. Saw him less, hard to connect. Now works closer but feels distant. He tries, I see that, but talks little and seems anxious. Hard when you want to care for someone who's so far away.

Long post, needed this out