Am I the only one feeling lonely?
I'm just trying to make it work, honestly. I'm super gentle and hardworking, love chatting with folks and always keep a sunny side up kind of vibe going. But you know how it goes-raising my kid solo while getting my business back on track after all that pandemic nonsenes is pretty rough. Then there's the aftermath of being stuck in a marriage with someone who doesn't really care about me or our son, plus dealing with his toxic faimly. It's like they just up and left us high and dry.
My own family has kinda disappeared off the map too, and whoever ends up in my life seems to want to undercut what I'm doing instead of supporting me. It's hard to feel valued when you're also handling all the household stuff on top of everything else. Being a small business owner, mom, maid, and the main breadwinner is draining.
Used to be super fit and full of energy when I left home at 19 with nothing but the shirt on my back. Worked my butt off for three decades, trying to build something great for myself. Now it feels like life's pulling everything away bit by bit. Used to have a million backup plans if things went sideways,but not anymore.
Sometimes thinkng about how lttle our close family and his dad care about my son's welfare is just heartbreaking. If I wasn't here, who would be there to watch out for him? It's exhausting being sad, depressed,and constantly worried all teh time. The thought of disappearing sometimes seems less scary because it feels like no one would notice if we were gone.
I'm a religious person through and through, but my faith is fading fast. I adore my son so much that even on tough days when resentment creeps in, his love keeps me going for at least another day. Yet the weight of this alone mom gig without any support feels like it's crushing me. Talking about these struggles with family or friends seems impossible since I can't be open and honest wiht them.
There are days where hvaing to figure out what's in my son's lunchbox just tips me over into a panic attack. My kid is amazing, he's the loveliest thing evver,but sometimes it's hard for that alone to motivate me to keep going day atfer day. I love my religion and wouldn't dream of hurting myself or him, but most days it feels like there are no other ways out when everything feels so bleak.
I don't know how much more of this I can take. Just feeling really beat up lately and wondering how long I can push throuugh all the exhaustion.
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I understand you might have reasons to feel optimistic and grateful each day. Every experience, whether challenging or not, can contribute to personal growth and resilience. Being thankful for the blessings in your life, like having a beautiful son, provides a clear purpose and motivation to face every morning with hope. Embrace the positive aspects of your journey and focus on self-care.Love yourself and cherish your relationship with your son, as you serve as an important role model for him. Strive to be the best version of yourself, both for your own well-being and his inspiration.
Thanks for the support-it really means a lot to have someone on my side.
Your history and your story moved me deeply. Your resilience is truly remarkable. I don't subscribe to the idea that everything that doesn't destroy you makes you stronger, but it's clear that you've endured a great deal of hardship. That, as I say, is impressive. If you ever write your life story, I would buy it without hesitation. You just need a few breaks right now. Once you get them, I have no doubt that you will rise again and create something meaningful with your son.
Friends and family can sometimes let us down, causing deep pain after investing so much in these relationships. Sometimes we need to embrace the hurt and move past it. However, you can succeed or find happiness either way. Either outcome means you win.
I'm currently reading "The Expectation Effect" by David Robson. While I usually don't read self-help books-they often seem pointless-this one was recommended by a journalist friend who had serious mental health issues and struggled with whether to continue. So far, it's been helpful. It reinforces the idea that many of us have experienced mental challenges and need kindness, rest, and recovery.
You should carry on for your son, who can be very inspiring, but also do it for yourself. You are worth it, and I believe you can do this. Make a new plan with several contingencies, and keep pushing forward. Your story gives me strength to see how strong you are.
Rest physically and mentally, and then start again. Share ur journey's ups and downs; it helps both of us with our own struggles. Keep in touch, and know that you can stand up and renew your path. It will be worth it. Thank you for sharing your story.
Your message meant a lot. Strangers give the best advice when shit hits the fan.
Ex-husband said "you're crazy." Family sid "be strong." Friends asked if I'm coping.
Most people in my life enjoy seeing others struggle. That's why I stopped tlaking to them.
Married women with all the perks criticize me for working hard while they rely on their husbands. Tired of it.
Ghosted most of those toxic bitches. Need正能量。
Thanks for understanding. My fight continues. Back in the ring, transofrming and winning. Grateful for this platform.
Yesterday sucekd, today u gave me hope and courage. blessings from ZA
Hope things go well for you,. Feel free to drop by anytime-u know I'm here whenever you need someone to talk to. Every day is a brand new slate; sometimes it's esay to start fresh, other times not so much. But no matter what, just keep going and see where life takes you. Let's chat more soon, okay?