Debating enm

i wanna be enm and connect wiht different ppl but monogamous peeps seem to get mroe action. they dte one then move on looking for the perfect match. feels like being honest is pointless.

not sure if enm is right 4 me tho, keeps coming up as a gal when i'm dating. maybe its low self-esteem making me wanna be mono again, but could b that it just works better and im not with the rte person yet.

its been 3 months since i split from my wief, pending separation/divorce. dont want another long term rel though rn. feel like need to be w/ someone else tho cuz cant stop thinking abt intimacy. sex wld b cool but might b missing sumthing w a closer friend or enm partner.