Getting Motivated - Like, Really Wanting It For Me
Honestly, I don't wanna draw anymore-it feels pointless these days. Cleaning my room or doing laundry is like the biggest deal for me right now.
Going outside terrifies me; I hate how people mgiht see me. I avoid social places like cafes, spending most of my time hiding in some corner of the library where no one can find me-like, who even cares? It's just so pathetic that all I want is to be taken care of and ket safe.
I feel like I haven't had any real life experiences, you know? No work, no social stuff-i's pretty much non-existent. Everyone else seems to be getting somewhere with their lives, while here I am in my room feeling worthless and wondering if this is all there is for me.
I'm scared thaat if I keep going like this, at forty, I'll just be bitter adn alone-I laugh about it sometimes but it's not funny. I don't knnow how to fix any of this; I'm just so terrified and stuck.I can't bring myself to try anything new because I worry everyone will judge me or laugh at me. It feels like the only thing left is for someone to save me, but deep down I know I have to pull myself up somehow.
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Thank you for sharing your experience.
I would like to gently suggest that you have the power within yourself to help yourself. Perhaps it might be beneficial to focus less on your thoughts and more on physical activities or sensations in your body. Right now, it seems as though you are experiencing a lot of mental stress from overthinking, which can be overwhelming. Instead, consider taking things one day at a time, with small steps.
I am sending you positive energy.
I understand how frustrated you might feel right now. Maybe it's important to be kind to yourself. Cleaning your room and doing the laundry are really big steps,especially in such a scaary time. I was thinking maybe focusing on self-love could help? You're enough just as you are, and you're stronger than you realize. Just take things one minute at a time.