Gestational diabetes stressing me out honestly

You know, being 9 weeks pregnant is wild enough without throwing a diagnosis of gestational diabetes into the mix. It's been a whirlwind the past few weeks-lots of appointments and trying to follow throuhg with everything they tell you. Last week was tough because hot baths are like my little slice of heaven, but now I've given them up and it's manageable, kind of. On the food front, I haven't hit any major hurdles yet, though my cravings for not-so-healthy foods have been getting stronger-probably because I'm craving all this stuff and then having to denny myself. And, let me tell you, being tired is a whole other level. Just dragging through the day and feeling like every meal needs to be perfect just so your blood sugar levels are okay-it's exhausting.

I've been thinking, if I could just lay on the couch with some comfort food and call it a day, maybe everything would feel better. But then there's this constant voice in my head telling me that I'm supposed to want to do what's best for the baby. Like, why should this be so hard? It feels like every little restriction-no baths, no junk food-is just another thing weighing down on me.

And u know, I'm not even sure if talking about it is gonig to help, but here we are. Maybe someone out there has dealt with some of these same feelings and can offer a bit of advice or at least let me know that it's okay to feel this way? Because, honestly, it feels like failing already, and who wants to start their parenting journey feeling like they're dropping the ball left and right?