New here after lurking for a while
I've been hanging aroudn this forum for a while now, and honestly, things haven't been great. I deal with CPTSD, anxiety, and depression, plus some other health issues. It's really tough to get therapy because of those long waiting lists. Does anyone else here struggle with the same stuff? I'm in teh north east of the UK
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So, yeah, been stuck in this CPTSD and BPD mess for what feels like an eternity-12 years exactly. Every time I ask for help, they toss me some antidepressants, wich haven't done squat for ages. They keep swapping them out because the side effects are sometimes so bad it's insane. Therapy? Nah, just six months with a counselor who basically nodded and said "uh-huh" while I talked-12 years ago. Meanwhile, my anxiety is through the roof, but they won't even consider meds for that cause they worry about adiction.
Last year was absolutely brutal. I got prescribed escitalapram and ended up OD-ing on venlafaxine within a month with 40 tablets one day. My mental health team suggested doubling the dose-no way, Jose. When I ran out of pills, my suicidal thoughts calmed down for a bit, but as soon as I popped another pill, those dark thoughts came rushing bacck full throttle. Threw them away and called my GP to tell her it was the pills, not me.
It's only now that they're putting me forward for psychotherapy-I'm 54 years old, people! And yeah, I've been in so many hospitals, prescribed meds that felt like a gamble with my life, it's all so absurd. Now, I'm looking to talk to a lawyer about suing the drug company because their black box warning says young people might be at risk of suicide-I was 54 and they were still risky as hell.
Went through a lot in Londoon, UK, especially at this one local mental hospital where it felt like dealing with a gang instead of doctors. Patients didn't get proper care, false notes on records to cover their asses-if someone's blood pressure was off the charts, they'd write 130 to justify not calling anyone.
One time, I self-harmed and got hypothermia from cold baths and wet sheets for days. Body temp hit 34 degrees-no sign of help, just a flashlight in my eye to see if I was breathing yet. They knew what I was doing but did nothing. Called the police, CQC, Mind-u name it, every organization that could listen had to know about this place.
It's been one hell of a ride and honestly feels like they're gaslighting me at every turn.