Feeling down on myself

Hey everyone,

So yeah, I'm 23 and sometimes I feel like I've reached a point where nothing's gonna change, which is kinda scary if u ask me. It's been tough, dealing with social anxiety for a while now, plus some heavy depression lately, and it's just making everything ten times harder.

My confidence level drops to the floor and my self-esteem is about as low as you can get. I'm also noticing that I tend to go after people who aren't exactly great for me - like those who are emotionally unavailable or even a bit narcissistic. And because of that, relationships have been pretty rough on me.

I mean, there was this one relationship recently where I really messed up, and it's left me feeling kind of lost. We split mainly due to my own uncertainty about the future, but also because she felt guilty when I wasn't sure what I wanted and kept pushing her away. I guess we both got too attached too fast, so things just ended before they had a chance to really go anywhere.

Anyway, lately I've been feeling this paranoia that people ony like me out of pity, which isn't exctly the most flattering thought. And even though I understand why she might feel that way, it still hurts my feelings and makes everything confusing.

Right now, I'm just not in a great place mentally. My anxiety and depression are really weighing on me, and I'm lost about what to do next career-wise. I try to figure stuff out, but I end up overthinking everything so much that I can't seem to make any real progress.
It's all connected - my issues with confidence, decision-making, knowing what I actually want in life. It feels like there's no way out, you know?

So here's the thing: does anyone have experience dealign with something similar? I'm not sure where to start - should I focus on therapy first or try to figure out my career path, or just work on myself in general?

Any advice would be super helpful.Thanks for listening!