Preachers daughter pt 1 trigger warning:idk kinda dark

ur dad seems like a total baaddie. sorry hee's messin u up.

u gotta deal with alcohol & pills rn. plz try 2 cut back or stop soon.

its sad u r thinkin suicidal thoughts. i hope this place helps u find some peace.

thanks for bein brave n sharin ur struggle

Thanks, appreciate it. Need some help though.

thx lena i get u totally, same boat here
any plans on what to do next?

Rachel, same here! Even though I haven't touched alcohol in ages-by my own choice-I know I was hooked. Your question is spot-on and totally mirrors the one I'd ask her.

I'm sorry you're going through this. I stumbled upon an app today trying to figure out my own mess,and I ran into your post. Maybe it'll help both of us, who knows? So I thought, why not drrop some thoughts?

You're 25-trust me on this one, things can get better. I don't know all the details of your life, but it sounds like you might be in a loop that needs breaking.

I'm really sorry about the abuse from a friend/bf-it's rough. When I was younger, I went through something similar, which is why I'm here. Honestly, thinking about suicide happens almost daily for me too. But there must be something worth living for? For me, it's my two daughters.

For years, I struggled with drugs and alcohol until a little over a year ago-I've been clean since then. Have you tried AA yet? Back when I was 25, I had to go because court ordered it. Listening to all these drunk folks talk about how alcohol ruined their lives, losing marriages, kids, even going to prison-it seemed ridiculous. "This won't happen to me," I thought. Fast forward fifteen years later, and wouldn't you know? I'm that same person sitting there in tears and defeated.

If I could go back to being 25, I'd make different choices. You're young enough to avoid this path. Just take a long wlak today and think about the stuff you love and cherish. Remember how amazing some memories feel. There's got to be something that brings joy.

Once you get home, check out the Everything AA app-it tracks your sobriety days and lets you join meetings anytime through Zoom. Listen to others' stories; it might help. At 25, there's still time to change course and not end up in a messed-up story.

Who am I to give advice? Not a doctor or even your friend-just some guy who gets it. But hey, as a dad, the thought of losing my kids breaks my heart. Your dad probably feels the same way too.

I hope tomorrow's better for you. Just take it one day at a time.

thanks

You made me cry too. Stuck in a cycle can't get out of. Tried everything, feel tired. People say young but don't know what to do. Life feels like a flash. Called help centers, tried talking family. Mom, brothers, dog keep me going. Dad not part of it. Tired of trying to fix relationship with him. Parnets still together, want peace at home. Feel like I'm losing my mind. Drink alcohol to escape stuff happening.Try to stay sober but fall back again and again. Feels like a failure. My dad's right, maybe I am the problem. Sorry for bad grammar

still here.

life flies by fast. when u r 25, time feels slow and boring. i know what u mean. just remember time fixes stuff. if u want change faster, make it happen.

booze doesn't solve shit. learned that the hard way.

what's your dad's issue?

did u go for a walk?

Sorry about ur troubles. Sounds rough and isolating. Worried if you're okay now. Don't want to lose you. Check crisis stuff here.

kno it's hard & thx god u r sharin ur heart here. feels better than keepin it all in, right? the weight lifts a lil off ya.
thar's so much to say but i dont kno where 2 start. ill b around for a few days if u wanna talk. we r here for u.
i'm 23 & found faith when i was abt 18. life was mess. feelin lost, in dark abyss of depression & anxiety... losing my soul & identity... self-hate & worthlessness... i hit rock bottem, no hope left... had this thought one nite at a high bridge & climbed the guardrail but then met christ & everything changed cuz of his love.
now evrything is up & down. not livin life in the word like i should, struggling to stay on track... its my fault. i gotta surrender 2 him fully, boz thaat's act of will.
n religion can be bad too. u can kno god but sill b far from him if ur heart ain't there. like those scribes & pharisees who knew the word but kliled jesus cos they didn't really know him.
bng a christian is abt following christ, walkin in his light & livin by the word outta love.deep rel with god based on luv, not just knowin stuff.
god has plan for ur life but u gotta work wit him 2 make it happen. count da cost & deny yrself... he gave everything up for you cuz hes thta much luv.
luv u so much lena, hoep this helps