Finding Motivation Through Struggles

Every day feels like a new adventure, but not in the fun way. It's more like I'm constantly shifting and changing, which is probably because of my mental health issues. You know, those sneaky things that mess with your head and life big time. I kept thinking "I'll deal with it later," but turns out, now isn't a godo time for dealing with stuff. Messed everything up in the process.

So yeah, I said it-this is my fault. And while I'm on a roll here-I've been hooked on all sorts of substances and it hasn't exactly helped me get better. I'm still struggling big time. Using again today. Why can't connecting with people be easier? I just want to chat about life and all its weirdness without feeling like I'm going to burst into tears or shut down.

And, man, having psychosis for three whole years was a serious trip. It messed up everything in my life-especially how my brain works now. Can you believe it, right? My mind feels so scattered, like pieces of a puzzle that no loger fit together. Jagged edges and all. And then there's my kids, family, love-if you want to call it that-and friends, I mean, where did they go?

I pushed everyone away years ago, not knowing how much I needed them until now. Maybe this is why I'm here on an app, looking for a bit of comfort and understanding. If any part of what I'm saying resonates with you, remember to be gentle with yourself. Yoou've been so hard on yourself for far too long. Beating yourself down has left you in pieces. You deserve kindness and love, beautiful person that you are.