Hoping for beter days fr

my chest feels so heavy my legs shake and i cry silently cus idk how 2 ask for help.
i've been waitin 4 it from the person i loved for so long -not someone who doesn't care, but one who never knnew how 2 reach me when i needed them most.
all i ever wanted was a hug, somethin simple like "i'm here," hand holding til my heart felt safe again.
but after waitin so long, im tired. slowly losin hope of bein cared for the way my heart understands.
so i hold my pillow close and imagine the comfort i craved -soft touch, forehead kiss, voice whispering "u r not too much ur feelings r valid i'm not leaving."
try 2 give myself the love i kept waitin to receive.