I feel like such a loser honesty

Oh man, I'm seriously feeling down today . Juts a typical 13-year-old here, waking up every day with the same routine: go to work with dad, come back home, watch some TV, and then hit the sack. No friends? None at all - they're all just mean, hateful people who are super raist and homophobic. Whenever I think about having a girlfriend, it makes me feel like such an ugly, desperate weirdo (and yes, I know I'm ugly, sigh.). Can't evn talk to girls or strangers normally either. Every time I try to change something, I mess up. Isn't that hilarious? Frick my lfie right now, ugh.