Tryng To Understand Myself Better

Hi there,

I'm a 15-year-old girl, and I think I want to start Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT) sessions to manage some lefotver cognitive issues from a depressive episode I had two years ago. It gradually got better on its own over the past year without any medical help.

Right now, I experience specific symptoms that really affect my life:

Rumination and Maladaptive Daydreaming: My mind kees wandering throughout the day with repetitive thoughts and memories. I find it vey hard to stop this cycle.

Loss of Memory and Focus (Pseudodementia): It feels like my brain isn't processing new information or making any new memories for about two years now. I instantly forget everything, which makes me seem disconnected from reality.

Conditioned Triggerrs and Distress: When I see darkness or dim lighting, it causes intense anxiety becuase it reminds me of my past depression and triggers fears of relapse.

Other Symptoms During Mind-Wandering: Sometimes my facial expressions change whille daydreaming, and if someone interrupts me, I get very irritated. It's tough to respond quickly when called out, and I often procrastinate on simple tasks as well.

This was a year after the depression started healing by itseelf without any help or therapy.